Heartbeat

Scared to be by myself More of everyone else Whose idea was this hell Has me petrified, has me paralyzed Rest my head on the pillow, on my bed made of nails All I want is to peacefully sleep Stare at the clock on the wall Watch the rain turn to hail Pessimism festers in me Heartbeat, heartbeat, beat like a drum Overthinking till the damage is done LCD keeps my cortex numb It's a part of me I don't want to see Heartbeat, heartbeat, beat like a bludgeon Everyone's watching, everyone's searching Can't sleep, can't sleep, sync with the sun It's a part of me, my anxiety I can't fall asleep (ahhhh), there are voices in my head Like anxiety (ahhhh), mixed with words I should have said I tried to brush it off, but my brain won't comply I stayed awake in bed for hours, I won't lie There must be something wrong with me I dont deserve to speak Covered my face so I can breathe I dont want to be seen I put my flaws behind a smile half the time But there no hiding from the silence in the night Rest my head on the pillow, on my bed made of nails All I want is to peacefully sleep Stare at the clock on the wall Watch the rain turn to hail Pessimism festers in me Heartbeat, heartbeat, beat like a drum Overthinking till the damage is done LCD keeps my cortex numb It's a part of me I don't want to see Heartbeat, heartbeat, beat like a bludgeon Everyone's watching, everyone's searching Can't sleep, can't sleep, sync with the sun It's a part of me, my anxiety