nature

Fuck me, I'm a tidal wave 'bout to make the city fall down I'm clean 'til I'm pretty wasted 'Cause you're getting wasted 'Cause you're like that now I'm not sure anymore If I can make you turn around, open doors 'Cause I don't like me when I'm acting out Living like a civil war But I want what I can, I can't help myself I'm selfish, in love, I love you too much I'm fucking this up But I can't hold it in So I say it out loud, it's loud in my head My head's ringing out, "I wanna be dead" But I can't do it, no I can't change a thing It's just my nature, I guess Like I wanna make sure that you hate me again And I'm not gonna fix it or pretend When it's just my nature Sideways, like a sheet of rain Maybe I should straighten my mind Do things for the thrill of it Take a pill of it just to see if it works this time I'm not sure anymore If I can keep holding up what I forged up about me Train wreck, I still got it bad Hating that you made me like that But I want what I can, I can't help myself I'm selfish, in love, I love you too much I'm fucking this up But I can't hold it in 'Cause it's loud in my head, I say it out loud It's all ringing out, "I wanna be proud" But I can't do it, yeah I can't change a thing It's just my nature again Like I wanna make sure that you hate me, I guess And I'm not gonna fix it or pretend When it's just my nature Yeah it's just my nature, no So I do it again, I'm playing it up And hating myself for letting me down Yeah how am I weaker than everyone else Telling me what's really in love 'Cause you're fucking not and I can't get over it Taking the hit, I'm losing myself But still holding on 'cause funny enough You're all that I know that I want It's all that I know It's just my nature I wanna make sure that you hate me again And I'm not gonna fix it or pretend