I Am

I won't give up And I refuse to sit down I destroyed myself a thousand fucking Times to turn this shit around I am, I am I'm so ashamed I want to die What you passed down: I'm horrified But I'm awake and I'm alive Yeah I'm awake and I'm alive And I won't be afraid anymore Not afraid anymore, not afraid I am, I am I am nowhere near finished with you yet I am nowhere near finished! I am, I am I'm alive! And I finally figured it out Self-loathing, shame, self-doubt It was you, it was you, all along And it's so fucking wrong! I was blind, so fucking blind You were never on my side I held you up so fucking high But now I realise This ends with mе And I'll do better than you I won't let anyonе else go through What you put me through And I am, I am I'm dragging myself by my fingernails If this is it, then this is hell Sometimes it's like I'll never be well Sometimes it's like I'll never be well But it won't always feel like this Won't always be like this Won't always feel like this I am, I am I'm alive! And I finally figured it out Self-loathing, shame, self-doubt It was you, it was you, all along And it's so fucking wrong! I was blind, so fucking blind You were never on my side I held you up so fucking high But now I realise I am nowhere near finished With you yet I am nowhere near finished: I am, I am, I am Won't always feel like this Won't always be like this Won't always feel like this I am, I am I am nowhere near finished with you yet I am nowhere near finished: I am, I am I'm alive!