Before You Ask For Everything

Before you ask for everything Can I tell you where I've been? Can I talk to you about my life and the saddest things I've seen? You see now I'm stood above this stage Singing for you all, You seem to think you've worked me out, You're such a know-it-all I'm not a poet, I'm not a Linguist, So the rhyme in this is simple, But the voice you hear is the kid in me, Who stills gets growing pains and pimples Yesterday I walked off stage, I found it hard to breathe. I cancelled all my commitments, And flew home over the seas. See lately I've been feeling low, A darkness keeps me blue - I've always felt it deep inside, Successfully kept it all from you. But now I'm bursting at the seams, My chest is getting tight. I think there is something wrong with me: My days now feel like night. It's made my questionably regrettably How much I want to live I'm embarrassed, ashamed, and petrified I have so much more to give So I'll stop the show Put down the drink Throw poison down the sink I'll turn away from what I love I'll pray, I'll cry, I'll think My mum will whisper 'you're okay' My dad will kiss my head My sister keep my laughing, Till I'm safe and warm in bed My friends will try to empathize Their efforts fill me up With joy and pain and gratitude I'll slowly feel enough I look around and realize So many feel like me So many people get this low And feel anxiety The only thing that helps me is the ability to talk To write my problems down like this On blackboards drowned in chalk I wonder If I didn't have the outlet that I do What do you think would be of me Would I be here now with you These questions go unanswered This life is so insane I guess I have to live with all this self-inflicated pain So goodbye for now I'm sorry if this poem was too sad Before you ask me everything Remember Like You I'm fucking mad