Callous

I lost my callouses for you And you didn't even think to ask me how my day was Now I'm leaving I couldn't even count the number of times That I let you in and I made myself small Even though I smile through out it all When I look back I can see myself slipping down Heaven knows, heaven knows I tried Heaven knows I tried tonight I know it's not your fault You were born with a spoon in your throat And a gun in your hand and a plan for yourself I'm not grieving It's just a matter of time and a matter of what And you've known since birth what you like And I'm happy for you until my face is blue When I look back I can see myself so clear When I look back I can see myself slipping down Tonight will be the night Heaven knows, heaven knows I tried Tonight will be the night Heaven knows I tried tonight Tonight will be the night Heaven knows, heaven knows I tried Tonight will be the night Heaven knows I tried tonight Tonight will be the night Heaven knows, heaven knows I tried Tonight will be the night Heaven knows I tried tonight