I Can and I Will

He drove me to the water And I didn't even swim He wanted me to have some fun And I'm sorry, I meant to, I did And it's hard to believe it still The beautiful thing that it is I wanted to be everything and I will 'Cause I want it still And it's alright And nothing calms down As hard as I try With my feet on the ground I buried my teeth and everything good Well, it didn't save me like I thought it would I can't write anymore I have a shadow over my door And it's not kind anymore It doesn't love me like before And I don't cry anymore Except when I do, which is most nights And I'll try not to lie anymore Or call it a symptom of fight or flight Wish I didn't take the money when I did Wish I didn't hate the city in mid July Think I must've been somebody at some time But you promise you can see me and you don't lie But this is not mine anymore Its giving you time like it always will I don't wanna die anymore There are hands to be held and drinks to be spilled And I can and I will You stand in the kitchen, making me still 'Cause I can and I will I can and I will I can and I will (it's alright if nothing calms down) I can and I will (as long as I try with my feet on the ground) I can and I will (I buried my teeth and did everything good) I can and I will (but it didn't save me like I thought it would) I can and I will I can and I will