Nervosa

[Verse 1: Garrett Russell] Look straight through me, look at the nightmare Our past is but a dream that we're trying to escape [1] Trying to evade to erase ourselves Look through me and see the advent of our obsessions [2] Behold, your child, perfection A rotting shell of atrophy Watching: crowds like crows, we furiously flock to tragedy Observe the hurt then hasten back to our peaceful, quiet nests of blasphemy Scapegoat: rather die and know, [3] drag your failing body in tow Witnessing the wake, conflagrate the ready oil at the stake Binging: the culmination of purging what our lusts have borne We hoarded all the world to find we'd lost any semblance of ourselves [4] [Pre-Chorus: Garrett Russell] This dying dance [Chorus: Cory Brandan & Garrett Russell] I am not my own reflection I am not myself, I am not myself No, I am haunted by a non-existent lover The specter, the ghost, the soul-starving host [5] I am haunted by a non-existent lover I was gifted with the vision but cursed to be the witness [6] Invisible to me [Verse 2: Garrett Russell] I'll be pale to match the walls and warped to trace the beams Flushed to fit across the floor so you can step right over me Scouring this filthy slate, these crooked bones they won't break straight Cracked and splintered like our house, upended by that first summer squall Fading: so thin, you could snap me into the shape you need Gaunt enough to slide through that wedding dress then stitch me to a Fraying matrimony Embalmed inside a never-ending ceremony [7] [Chorus: Cory Brandan & Garrett Russell] I am not my own reflection I am not myself, I am not myself No, I am haunted by a non-existent lover The specter, the ghost, the soul-starving host [5] I am haunted by a non-existent lover I was gifted with the vision but cursed to be the witness [6] [Outro: Cory Brandan] Invisible to me Invisible to me Invisible to me [8]