Nosedive

I was driving out on the highway Thought about swerving in the other lane Right in front of a bus or a big semi-truck, the impact blew me away It's not that I'm looking to die I just wonder bout falling sometimes Looking over the edge I feel alive I'm thinking about taking a nosedive It's not that I'm working this dead end job My brother got the chicken farm I've got two good hands to take my bottles and cans in I just never make it that far I was swimming the river near, just a little up from the weir The signed said no, but I wanted to go, a ghost leaving the party Chopping wood out behind the shed Wondering who would miss me if I fell down dead Would the flowers grow up through the snow Would my kid still go to heaven? It's not that I ain't been sleeping at all, my sister won the lottery I got two good hands to take my bottles and cans in I just never made it that far I was driving out on the highway Thought about swerving in the other lane