Gethsemane

I wanted you to know, I've learned to live without it And even though it's colder now, I no longer feel surrounded And you never listened to me, and that's the thing I tell the others You were my harlequin bride, I was your undercover lover, but no You never saw me naked, you wouldn't even touch me Except if you were wasted But you were trying your best, and that's the thing I tell the others I was your robot companion, you were my favourite colour, and oh I'm caught up on the person I tried to turn myself into for you Someone who didn't mind the push pull parlour games Someone who wasn't always crying on the journey back Someone who didn't feel the low blows either way Thought I was waiting for you, when all along It was you with the countdown kill switch, and it was me with the blindfold on And I was trying my best, and that's the thing I tell the mirror I was in love with the thought that we were in love with each other What might be good for your heart Might not be good for my head And what was there at the start Might not be there in the end Do you wanna hurt me? Do you wanna hurt me? 'Cause nobody hurts me better Do you wanna hurt me? Do you wanna hurt me? 'Cause nobody hurts me better Came in like a dream, put it down like a smoke We used to be a team, now we let each other go Your cigarette ash still clinging to my clothes I don't wanna stick around, I just wanna let you know Came in like a dream, put it down like a smoke We used to be a team, now we let each other go Your cigarette ash still clinging to my clothes I don't wanna stick around, I just wanna let you know Came in like a dream, put it down like a smoke We used to be a team, now we let each other go Your cigarette ash still clinging to my clothes I don't wanna stick around, I just wanna let you know Came in like a dream, put it down like a smoke We used to be a team, now we let each other go Your cigarette ash still clinging to my clothes I don't wanna stick around No one's gonna save me from your memories Nothing to lose but I would have given anything To get closer to you and all your enemies I've got a few of my own, and this throne didn't come with a gun So I've got a different energy I still see you when the lights get low I still hear you when I'm on my own The parasites in the nightmares Calling my name, like, "Please just let me go" This one's for you and your problems Your good day job, your bad karma, what are you afraid of? The same trauma, show me what you're made of 'Cause you talk about your constant pain like I ain't got none And I've learned to live beside it And even though it's over now, I will always be reminded