Innocence

Just another waste of time and effort, of flesh and bone Caught in the numbing turmoil of everyday existence Looking in a mirror reveals the husk of my former self It's hard to believe I used to be happier I would live in blissful unawareness As if nothing could take me from the moment Innocence seemed to last forever I would find comfort in the light of day And dream of vibrant meadows As the summer breeze lulled me to sleep each night Happiness was never out of reach Little did I know of the storm that was waiting I saw the world for what it really was A cesspool brimming with hate and sorrow My blind optimism was my downfall Now Living in fear of what the next day will bring I wish I had seen it before it was too late Living in fear of what the next day will bring I wish I had seen it before it was too late Each day feels impossible to endure Each night I drown my despair in alcohol Each night I hope for someone to hide me from the bitter truth To take me back to days when I wasn't so fucked up