Jaded

I feel alone in my body I feel a silence underneath In these valleys of blood In these rivers of rust Shoulder all the blame again Mirror locked until the end It was violent and rough I was never enough But what if I was stable enough to wind me down the road Like a remora swims? But what if I was inside a thousand lives to give my ghost? It's never enough, it's never enough And I've always been ashamed that I want to Fall into a dream with my honour desecrated Blood is jaded I've never found a way to be honest All I know is a place where I haunted memories faded Blood is jaded In my dreams all I see is a crimson key Tethered by a falling string Meant to turn in the lock for me I can't leave so I justify Interloper of confidence under pressure of influence Not a curse that I caused, never to rot What if I was? (What if I was?) What if I was? (It's never enough, it's never enough) And I've always been ashamed that I want to Fall into a dream with my honour desecrated Blood is jaded I've never found a way to be honest All I know is a place where I haunted memories faded Blood is jaded I know where I want to go But you know that it's too close And you know that it's too late this time And I've always been ashamed that I want to Fall into a dream with my honour- I've never found a way to be honest All I know is a place where I haunted memories faded Blood is jaded I've always been ashamed that I want to Fall into a dream with my honour desecrated Blood is jaded Ooh, I've never found a way to be honest All I know is a place where I haunted memories faded Love is jaded (What if I was?)