Everyone's at Home Eventually

When I was young, I had no ambition No lust, no drive. I was living fiction Fifteen and fucked, I was so ungrateful Sixteen and sunk, I was ready to give up But instead I just drank up I felt good when I drank I felt like I was alive I felt strong for the first time I felt at home in my own skin Up until I fell down on my fears Fell down, for fifteen years I know I wasted half my life Drunk on doubt And now I’ll do without Woke up in cuffs, no idea what happened Head torn to shreds, lips completely blackened No bail required, I was barely processed As I walked home, the sun hung above my head And I felt scared Tired and ashamed I knew I couldn’t outrun it anymore And yet I kept on Up until I fell down on my fears Fell down, for fifteen years I know I wasted half my life Drunk on doubt And now I’ll do without Now that I have some distance Now that I’m clean, I feel like I can have friends But then again I think I’ll do without