Could've Been A Star

You talk down to me pretty bad I edit things you said when I tell my friends about it But when they're in my head Sometimes I recognize there might be a little truth to it I can't live this way, always on the back foot Say he's been back in LA, that makes me anxious Behind the canyon of my ego, I know it's just my sadness Crashing, making memories of madness Laughing so hard I can't stand it Classic, all I'm good at is ruining you Vanish, disappear like a hat trick Laughing like some old washed-up has-been Actress, my best work is ruining you I could've been a star I could've been a star I might be a little darker than I pretend And maliciously intended to hurt you I wish that nothing was buried under the surface And maybe I could properly love you Can't say I'm proud, but I'm still fond of our youth You came into my story and let me rule you I swear I didn't mean to break all hell loose Crashing, making memories of madness Laughing so hard I can't stand it Classic, all I'm good at is ruining you Vanish, disappear like a hat trick Laughing like some old washed-up has-been Actress, my best work is ruining you I could've been a star Pretending to know what I'm after I could've been a star Whirling like a natural disaster I could've been a star I lost all control and I can't stand you I could've been a star Who I am, you left me behind I could've been a star