Silent Restraint

I see you all Beyond this pain I remain trapped With the monsters in my brain Please someone break through Silent restraint Wish I could write from the heart And tell you what's wrong And put this gnawing into words But the path is blocked by a wall of glass I scream and it just bounces back I waste away As I wait and wait Just to smile again So desperate for help that nothing helps I fail when I try to be my old self How do I fix it? How do I get better? Does anybody have an answer? I'm sick of feeling like a burden I'm sick of having no control I'm sick of always needing help I'm sick of being afraid of myself They say, they say They say, "You will smile again" You will smile again Not in the same way Not with the same joyful abandon There will be a barrier between your lips and your eyes And you'll wonder if they notice, light that's fading over time You will smile again As you try to convince yourself it's real You will keep forcing it Until forcing it is all you remember how to feel You will smile again For the sake of them It's just selflessness and depression Going hand in hand again I see you all Beyond this pain But I remain trapped With the monsters in my brain Please someone break through the silent restraint