I Am My Own Hell

I am my own hell And i have made my home In a place where no one ever goes I'll always be alone I'm learning all kinds of tricks How to drain the blood out of my face And spend a summer in bed So everyone will think i'm dead When i come back to you It'll be on my hands and knees I'd be lying if i said I didn't dream sometimes About what it would be like If i didn't have this life My legs start to shake When it's my time to leave