Spineless

[Verse 1] I feel like I'm hanging by my throat I wanna cut the rope but I just don't know how to cope They say I got it all but in reality I'm broke Try to cleanse my soul but I bought the wrong soap How the hell did this happen? I used to think I was a captain Now I'm all alone and my stories untold I'm missin' the innocent citizen I coulda been Listenin' to Eminem, just a kid with some headphones Ashamed of my thoughts so I hide 'em all in jokes I hate my fuckin' shows, I can’t do this anymore So I just choke on these fucked up feelings that I wrote Waiting for the day I wake up and feel like everybody else I just want to be myself I'm already in hell, can't you tell by the smell? But I am who I am and it is what it is Limited my abilities so I could live [Hook 1] I've lost my mind can't you help me find it? The Devil gave me a contract and I signed it All the bitches and money got me blinded Can't even sit up anymore, bitch I'm spineless And if you find this a little bit amusing You and ya whole crew can bite on this uzi You've unleashed the fuckin' Terror inside me So when I'm gone move on and don't cry for me [Verse 2] I can't feel pain, I can't hide, I can't go outside I can't look anybody in the eye I couldn't even cry, back when Greenback died I try to ease my pain but I always gotta fly I see no reflection when I look into a mirror I’m fading into nothing and that ain't even my biggest fear I just don’t wanna be forgotten I wanna be a prophet I want my shit played out often Don’t wanna be anotha body in the earth And I want every mothafucka to have a Terror Reid shirt And bump my shit til' they fucking ears hurt Ain’t gonna be a starvin' artist, gone unheard Want 'em to hear my words To feel my hurt To see my dirt To go berserk That’s why I always work But that's why I always hurt man Fuck it I'm forever stoic I guess all I’ll ever be is another dead poet [Hook 2] My mind is gone, I don't wanna find it The Devil gave me a contract and I signed it All the bitches and money got me blinded Can't even sit up anymore, bitch I'm spineless And if you find this a little bit amusing You and ya whole crew can bite on this uzi You've unleashed the fuckin' terror inside me So when I'm gone move on and don't cry for me