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[Verse] I remember bein' born November 28th, 2008 My mother smiled, she hurt for my birth I'll be the first to say my father was a man of his word, morals, religion too He taught me everything that I know, what I was supposed to do He taught me not to quit or relinquish, to be ambitious too I wanted to be just like him, put myself in his shoes His wife was hardworkin' and young, a child to four roots She also came from humble beginnings, her life was always rude My father gave me his name, he wanted me just to bе everything he couldn't Bеcause his time was short and sweet Heart conditions, case dismissed for many years, he wouldn't believe it Until it was passed down to his offspring, was sad to see it As time went on, his work went down, he struggled to breathe In and outs of the hospital made me pray for a key to heaven for this man He was the man that taught me everything But when the news hit, the taste in my mouth became bittersweet Unchastity was in his blood, it's hard to think that's who he was The man that taught me who to be to me became a holy scrub A part of me can't take it, hate the things he did It's truly love I had for him, but at what cost? It's not a fact that I could shrug My mother cried herself to sleep the night she discovered After that, did everything to hide that she was disgruntled Truly disgustin', he apologized, the damage was already done I saw the pain that's in her eyes, could not wish that on anyone I understand why he taught me to not be him Because he don't want me to repeat what he's done and did His advice was truly bountiful, he was a man that I counted on Feel bad for Mom, she suffered in silence, spoke to me through a song