Premeditated

Dear old friend I'm writing this to plant an image in your head For the girl that you fucked and left for dead After she told me not a word was said But something changed inside me And if she wasn't your first I'm making sure she's your last It takes such a small human being To lose all control and to lust like a fiend So keep on praying that her fear keeps you protected I'll rest my mind And let you live on my given time I've made this my life It left me sleepless at night I watched her world fall apart in your hands (in your hands) So tell me Was it everything you hoped and dreamed? Her legs pinned down And face shoved deep into your seat You feel blood, you don't stop, you don't stop, just repeat It only makes you harder And this wait has only made me stronger You have no idea how long I've planned this out in my head He just shut his bedroom door for the last time I'm keeping still, breathing slow, with my hands tight I feel the demons inside me They feel what I feel I am connected through a mindset (I fuel the demons inside me I feel what they feel And we are all connected) He lays in his bed so hopeless I watch the life leave his eyes Slaughtered the man I despised Wrapped up his body in his bed sheets My hearts racing faster than this car Did I stab him enough? At least I made it this far I only wished you could see the look on your mother's face You've truly broken her heart I rest my mind So she can finally sleep at night I've made this my life It left me sleepless at night I watched her world fall apart in your hands (in your hands)