Long Hot Summer (Extended Version)

I play out my role Why I've even been out walking They tell me that it helps But I know when I'm beaten All those lonely films And all those lonely parties But now the feeling is off-screen An' the tears for real not acted, anymore I'm all mixed up inside I want to run but I can't hide And however much we try We can't escape the truth and the fact is Don't matter what I do It don't matter what I do Don't matter what I do Don't matter what I do Don't matter what I do 'Cause I end up hurting you One more covered sigh And one more glance you know means goodbye Can't you see that's why We're dashing ourselves against the rocks of a lifetime (In my mind different voices call) What once was pleasure now's pain for us all (In my heart only shadows fall) I once stood proud now I feel so small (I don't know whether to laugh or cry) The long hot summer just passed me by