Lonely

Could it be that all these strange feelings All this physical pain, this wincing at your name was only A sign of being lonely? Could it be that it was so hard? In a city filled with people Passing through the eye of the needle Passing by so close on the street I know you felt the weight of it Just as hard as I did, that's why I loved you so much I understood the coldness in your touch And why you had to go down to the lake For hours every day To see the swallows fly up from the waves I understood you that way To be lonely, when everybody else says they're not Lonely, when everybody else says they've got somebody It's only you that's marked like me This smudge I can't wash off This habitual mistrust of you The thought I can't get near to The place I always disappear to Something so big, I couldn't see it till it was gone Laying there with him, something stitched in was undone And I knew what it was not to be lonely It don't fix everything, but I felt so changed I could just look at the sky again Blue and plain, new but still the same I should have gone down To the Southern Cross any night of the week There it was, just a building at the end of a street To see Felicity sing, or Robin play Sitting at the back of the bar, your hand on my arm A simple recipe, this medicine really That can let anything in That I carried with me, all this shame and darkness within Like it don't matter, we all just sat there just letting it in The song's being sung And Thom played some dissonant run That reminds me, somehow Of that same knot that's come undone Like some old wive's tale nobody tells you about Just this thing that usually works Somehow