I Don't Like Who I Was Then (feat. Ryland Heagy of Origami Angel)

Tossed around like sea glass and you rounded out my edges I'll feel better when the headaches go away I got a scar across my forehead, turning purple in the cold From a night at Shore Memorial I was 16 and afraid Turned away, like I'm working baby face Out of Mid-South in the 80's I kept a blade hidden in my wrist tape I think I'm growing into someone you could trust I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks I want to run until my lungs give up If I could manage not to fuck this up If I could manage not to fuck this up I think enough is enough Hidden in the tall grass in the naked light of day I put my past-self in the ground I've been dancing on the grave I'm not the person that I was then I'm tearing him away I was bitter. I was careless I was 19 and afraid But you deserved more from me I don't know why I would say those things But you deserved more from me and I'm trying every day I think I'm growing into someone you could trust I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks I want to run until my lungs give up If I could manage not to fuck this up If I could manage not to fuck this up I think enough is enough You left me walking in circles You were a shot in the dark You were the baby teeth I buried You were the sounds of distant cars You left me walking in circles You were a shot in the dark You were the banner that says "No One" That I tattooed across my heart You left me walking in circles (You left me walking in circles) You were a shot in the dark (You were a shot in the dark) You're scattered like ashes across every song that I write You're where the light pollution starts (You're where the light pollution starts) I think I'm growing into someone you could trust I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks I want to run until my lungs give up If I could manage not to fuck this up If I could manage not to fuck this up Enough is enough