Shadowboxing

Everyday I'm working, working, working on me Constantly I'm holding, holding, holding the beast off Thought it would be easy, easy, easy to leave But hot hell, I'm shadowboxing myself I'm paranoid, I'm paralysed, I'm half alive behind the eyes I'm tipsy, tipping on razor edge, don't let the lines inside my head My mother told me, "Let it go You've done enough, just let it go But every night I fantasize, of kissing it, just one more time Painted nails, and late night sales Girls and boys, all in hell Baby, touch me, let's get ugly I don't think I'm ready to fall Everyday I'm working, working, working on me Constantly I'm holding, holding, holding the beast off Thought it would be easy, easy, easy to leave But hot hell, I'm shadowboxing myself Everyday I'm working, working, working on me I'm over here just crying, crying, crying the sheets out Thought it would be easy, easy, easy to leave But hot hell, I'm shadowboxing myself I've been dancing, but I can't dance I'm in fashion, monkey on my back Every second is a test and I'll take it It's a pity, never been a academic Painted nails, and late night sales Girls and boys, all in hell Baby, touch me, let's get ugly I don't think I'm ready to fall Everyday I'm working, working, working on me Constantly I'm holding, holding, holding the beast off Thought it would be easy, easy, easy to leave But hot hell, I'm shadowboxing myself Everyday I'm working, working, working on me I'm over here just crying, crying, crying the sheets out Thought it would be easy, easy, easy to leave But hot hell, I'm shadowboxing myself Monkey on my back Not good for my health But hot hell, I'm shadowboxing myself Monkey on my back Not good for my health But hot hell, I'm shadowboxing myself