Loops

How can I explain? Blood in my veins Like liquid pain, ancestral shame How women were tamed, how men behaved My lineage, cyclical rage Child brides and child widows, orphans on both sides Silenced women, silenced children, the fear of God But the wrath of humans, the domestic, the righteous The book of Genesis and the night shifts We barely made ends meet, we were always on our feet Moving from one place to another, one face became another Just a kid taking shelter, how do you make someone like me Repress a generation, how do you create an outburst of identity? You gaslight a generation, you can only stop the wave For so long before the tidal You can only tie the hands and not the eyeballs The caste system divided my family The backwaters and the sugar cane fields Now all they had to their name, kicked out of the temple Land we own but exiled from Hindu to Christian (kicked out of the temple) From chosen to orphan and so I descend (kicked out of the temple) If you look at the chain, you see good girls and bad boys If you look at the chain, you see a world underwater with no gills You can't breathe, you can't swim deeper You can't even sleep, stay awake so you don't drown Stay alert so you won't get put back down They say women can't be God Women can't be solo, women can't be rappers Women can't talk about sexuality, it's blasphemous But in their contrast, they created me The darkness reveals the light The righteous inspires the rebellion And fuck am I inspired How can I explain? Blood in my veins Like liquid pain, ancestral shame How women were tamed, how men behaved My lineage, cyclical rage Wouldn't say my name (My lineage)