A Fault Line. A Fault of Mine

I'm not scared, but this is happening, I'm not afraid, but this is real, this is real I'll count the ways, from every single direction This time I'm not, I'm not sleeping at all How could this be real I've failed You, I've failed You I was lying when I said, I was looking north I was too scared to show what I am Bear with me, bear with me, this is all I have left This might be more than a simple conversation It's been dancing around my head For quite some time Just a thought of cleaning up myself I was lying when I said, I was looking north I was too scared to show what I am Bear with me, bear with me, this was all I had left This might be more than a simple conversation I'm not sleeping I'm not sleeping at all, I stare at the wall, watching my time float away Its all been a blur, and nothing will change I stare at the wall, watching my time float away Its all been a blur, and nothing will change I was lying (I WAS LYING) I was lying (I WAS LYING) This is defeat.