Waves Control

Fuck it, why don't you just let me overdose? I did it again, and woke up again Tired of running from all these withdrawals, keep losing my friends This might be my end All of these drugs while I'm counting my ends Fuck it I'm dead Fuck it I'm dead inside And now you know why Now that I'm gone, I'm on the run Alone in my room I look down at my gun Picking it up, I don't want to give up but I'm stuck in this rut that I've dug and I'm fucked The drugs didn't help I blame myself for the shit I've been dealt Tell you I'm cool but I'm losing my grip Tell you I'm good but I'm losing my shit You didn't want to take him to the hospital All you really wanted was his capital Another one lost that we cannot predict This is a plague and we cannot pretend Another mistake might cost you your life When you're sticking the needle and walk towards the light Letting go of all I've ever known I wanna feel the wave's control Tighten its grip around my throat Crashing over me, I'm holding on Feel the narcotics might never wake up All of these bodies just start to pile up And that's when it hits you and rips you perplexed Now you are floating, it's on to the next Now I'm letting go, let the chemicals control I'm holding on Always dismissed do you get the gist? I'm holding on Letting go of all I've ever known I wanna feel the wave's control Tighten its grip around my throat You never really ever gave a shit Always dismissed do you get the gist? Always kneeling down I'm an addict with a crown Don't you love the sound when my body hits the ground? Why don't you just let me drown? Fuck it, why don't you just let me overdose? I did it again, and woke up again Tired of running from all these withdrawals, keep losing my friends This might be my end All of these drugs while I'm counting my ends Fuck it I'm dead Fuck it I'm dead inside And now you know why