U Deserve

Digging through my mind and memories I remember once you told me That nobody'd care if I disappeared And I believed every word Everyday I'd stare at my reflection But all I ever saw was imperfection I'd cry at the mirror But no one would hear You never let them listen Wish that the weather wasn't so grey Wish I was better, and knew what to say It feels like I'm playing a dangerous game Fake it 'til I make it 'Til I'm finally okay Hadn't seen the sun for an eternity Skirting round the borderline of sanity I'd scream at the wind but no one would listen You never let them in Tell me that I'll reach a destination 'Cause oh my God, I'm running out of patience Swear on my life I'll be alright Just tired of these burning eyes Wish that the weather wasn't so grey Wish I was better, and knew what to say It feels like I'm playing a dangerous game Fake it 'til I make it 'Til I'm finally okay Take back your conscience and your crimes Every minute of your time Get the fuck out of my mind Take back your weapons and your words Put the seconds on reverse All this hatred u deserve You deserve, you deserve Wish that the weather wasn't so grey Wish I was better, and knew what to say It feels like I'm playing a dangerous game Fake it till I make it 'Til I'm finally okay Now I hardly ever feel depleted 'Cause when I smile I genuinely mean it Knowing myself I don't need help From you or anyone else Jealousy corrupts your standards Like melodies with empty lanterns But when he laughs it heals my heart It makes me feel enough