Holy Havoc

I've learned the world it never moves in a straight line Like my midnight insides reeking holy havoc on the west side I hide dry and bitter lights under my riptide eyes I'm afraid of my infinite little mind I love you like a sailor loves the sea With longing and terror and envy But I want too much and I think I'll be okay If I just fill myself up cause I don't know another way How does your heart have so many doors And why do I find it so hard to be cared for But don't hold it against me I'm still learning how to be saved So don't hold it against me I'm not ready to be rearranged Our crowded futures will be filled with acid rainbows And maybe love will be the only way to make it feel like home