Am I the Only One

Am I the only one who asks his love If what I did was wrong when I was younger? Am I the narcissist who needs The focus racked to all my pain and my discomfort? Am I escapist or a sadist? Can you save me? Can you help me find where I am good? Sitting up late in bed, self-hate and shame Wanting to be dead, wanting to grow another body Wanted to write about the bad men That I've known throughout my life But I'll be honest I have to look within my heart And grieve the things that I have done To find forgiveness and some love I am the good man that my wife says that I am But I have also been so awful Absolution never came, so I find a way To integrate the demons in my soul Am I the only one who asks? Am I the only one who asks? "Can I reconcile my past?" Am I the only one who asks? Am I the only one who asks? Am I the only one who asks "Can I reconcile my past?" Am I the only one who asks? Here I am Here I am, before you Here I am Here I am, at last Here I am Here I am, before you Here I am Here I am, at last