I’m Not

I wasn't holdin' on to words that you never meant Problems with myself 'cause of the things that I never said Brea-, brea-, breaking down the walls between us Only to find that the open door was straight ahead So tell me, what am I breaking my back for? I should've asked more, probably could've relaxed more When I was tripping, could've filled the red stamp on the passport Now I'm just guessing that I'm gettin' the pain that I asked for This is exactly what I never came back for Bеcause I'm, not, searching for forgivenеss Because I'm, not, taking back the things I've done And I'm, not, making your decisions Because you're everything I'm not Can never live in the background It's getting harder to stop this bleeding back Never needed to back down Been underwater and I'm still breathin' in Next up, my God, I've got, one thing and I want more reasons And I've got, my heart, turned up Sick of trying to fight this feeling Because I'm, not, searching for forgiveness Because I'm, not, taking back the things I've done And I'm, not, making your decisions Because you're everything I'm not (Because you're everything I'm not) As I take in my last breath And this weight is on my shoulders I don't need to second-guess Won't let you in Feel this pain inside my chest And we're only growing colder I don't need to second-guess I let you in I'm, not, searching for forgiveness Because I'm, not, taking back the things I've done And I'm, not, making your decisions Because you're everything I'm not I'm, not, searching for forgivenеss Because I'm, not, taking back the things I've done And I'm, not, making your decisions Because you're everything I'm not