Self‐Destruct

So why do I fall For all of my faults If I don't feel like dying? (Dying) I pull out the pin, I self-destruct I feel my scars And still I don't learn You watch me burn Inside a fire I set I guess I've been holding on to every broken promise that I've ever made So why do I fall For all of my faults? If I don't feel like dying It shouldn't be this hard It's under my skin Feel it in my bones If I don't feel like trying (trying) I pull out the pin, I self-destruct I fall apart I see no return I've come to terms with The other side that's waiting, patient If I can't break the cycle what's the point? Everything I touch ends up destroyed I hold onto anything I can to fill the void And It's a mess but I guess I've been holding on to every broken promise that I have ever made So why do I fall For all of my faults? If I don't feel like dying It shouldn't be this hard It's under my skin Feel it in my bones If I don't feel like trying (trying) I pull out the pin, I self-destruct I leave the venom inside Forever will I Keep the same energy, dead or alive I cut it off, fucking lost But it's done to myself I lay exploded, never calling for help So why do I fall For all of my faults? If I don't feel like dying It shouldn't be this hard It's under my skin Feel it in my bones If I don't feel like trying (dying) I pull out the pin, I self-destruct I self-destruct