Duress

Always looking behind me
I wanna find out where I stand
Figure the stains out on my hands
Running away without a plan
Terrible child, waking up miles and miles
Adrift from sight of land
Letting my ship get lost again
Screaming "so catch me if you can"

What could you need you don't already see here?
Don't be so naive, girl
They'll eat you alive
Well I'm not afraid of friendly teeth
Or jaws that just pretend to be
There's not much left for me
But seeing what it's like

If I crash and the rocks are a lot like the last
Well I promise, I'm not going back
So you don't need to know where I'm at
No, you don't need to know that, cause I
Swear to God I am not like the kid
Who did all of the things that I did
So if I take the risk and I win
Then you don't need to know

Always looking behind me
I wanna find out where I stand
Figure the stains out on my hands
Running away without a plan
Terrible child, waking up miles and miles
Adrift from sight of land
Letting my ship get lost again
Screaming "so catch me if you can"

Still running through the same old blurs
And I'm digging in the dirt, you said "Show me where it hurts"
I try to get the feeling back from dead and damaged nerves
I don't know why I do
Just trust me, let me go, I'm gone
Just protect me from what I want
Oh God, it's all my fault
You let me get it wrong

I made a scene again and I know you were waiting for it
And this is all pretend, I'm playing and you're paying for it
It's in my head, I tried to escape
But I need this place, pull me back and take
All my weapons away, nothing left in my range
Reaching out from my bed while it asks me to stay
With polite little lies and white lights in my face
I'm so sick, I'm so tired, watch me make me behave