Going Away

When I can't get to sleep

I dream about going away

About leaving my friends

And not coming back

And what they would say

About how they'd miss me

And how they would hurt

And how in the end

They'd be okay

I even do admin

I make plans for the bills

The belongings

The projects

The problems

I tie them all up

I put them to sleep

And I leave

And someone would even come looking

And I'd tell them I'd left

Because I love you all so

And this would be a lie

And both of us would know

When I can't get to sleep

I dismantle my world

And I make sure you suffer

And I make sure it's bad

And soon I am sleeping

Before I have time

Before I have time

To be glad