Black Dahlia

[Spoken Intro: Natalia Kills]

You should write a song where the concept is…

You’re basically writing like a love letter, or like a piece of advice

To your mother, when she was your age

[Intro: Angel Haze]

I don’t know

Maybe I would write you a happy ending

I would rearrange the pieces to your sad beginning

I would put you far away from the decaying roots that bore you

And let you experience all the ways that happiness could bloom before you

Or maybe I’m naïve…

Maybe I’m just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed

It would somehow grow inside you

[Verse 1: Angel Haze]

Spent so much of my time wishing you were different

But reality is that with life can't never be provision

But if I could wish for one thing, I’d go back and I’d fix it

I’d tackle all your obstacles and kill 'em with precision

And better the intentions of every single person

Who'd play a part in you learning exactly what your worth is

I’d shower you with purpose, I’d wipe hate off the surface

I’d reshape all your pain and make it fucking worth it

No more feeling worthless, no more fucking searching

No more of that fraud shit, nobody else could hurt you

Yeah, said nobody else could hurt you

And if they ever tried too I’d wipe 'em from the Earth too

Cuz I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too

I know that you been running from everything that’s behind you

I know you’ve been burying everything deep inside you

I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you

But I’m stuck sitting in this time frame

Struggling with my demons and playing these stupid mind game

One day it could get better, maybe it could get better

Maybe we could change shit, no more inclement weather

Know you hated your mom, know it went through your mind

You were just like me, wish that you had more time

To see life from a different angle, wrestle with a different angel

Wouldn’t lose your wings and fall from heaven like a cliffhanger

[Verse 2: Angel Haze]

Everything is different now, nothing is the same

And nowadays I swear it feels like you don’t know my name

But I look at the mirror and I see you every day

I’m you in every way, every hue and every shade

And maybe you should know, it’s the last thing that I wanted

Cuz what I hate about you makes me feel like I’m haunted

And I don’t wanna spend the rest of my time on the run and-

So I’m just gonna confront it, yeah I’m just gonna confront it

And tell you that I love you for everything you made me

And that you need to hear this even if it makes you angry

God lives inside you, you’ve already found him

The Devil lives in memories and you just let him hound you

And I despise your church for every fucking thing they taught you

It’s just a fucking stain that I wish I could wipe off you

That I wish I could wipe off you

And I forgive you for doing everything that it cost you

Everything that it cost you

Fame is such a heavy price, I wish it didn’t cost you

Losing a part of me that would follow you to Hell

Follow you to hatred, or follow you to jail

Followed you to patterns that I could never get out of

Now I realize that I could never make it with that love

Now I realize that shit is the alternative outcome

Never wanted you to save me, I just wish I count some

I just wish that you grew up with someone you could count on

I wish you knew that you could never make it without love

For your goddamn self, and that you never ever find it in anybody else

Cuz I would help you find you

And if I saw it killing you I swear I would revive you

And if that meant the end of me

I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy end in peace

[Bridge: Natalia Kills]

Because, you are such a special thing

You’re not just my mom, but you’re the reason I exist

And the best life that you could’ve had for yourself without making a mistake

Would have meant I woulda had a nicer childhood

And even though my childhood wasn’t perfect and I still love you

I just want you to know that if I could go back and do one thing for you

Or be one person for you

I would make sure, not just for my sake, but so that you could’ve had a nicer life

And a nicer childhood, that you know

You would not have made the mistakes that put us all in this bad situation

And not have the strength to leave

But just so that you would have been happier and stronger

Even if I didn’t exist, even it meant that I was never born

That’s what I would have wanted for you

[Verse 3: Angel Haze]

Yeah, and if that meant the end of me

I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending

Cuz I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too

I know you’ve been running from everything that’s behind you

I know that you’ve been burying everything deep inside you

I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you

And if that meant the end of me

I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending

And if that meant the end of me

I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending

And if that meant the end of me

I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending

[Outro: Angel Haze]

I don’t know

Maybe I would write you a happy ending

I would rearrange the pieces to your sad beginning

I would put you far away from the decaying roots that bore you

And let you experience all the ways that happiness could bloom before you

Or maybe I’m naïve…

Maybe I’m just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed

It would somehow grow inside you

And that I could hide you from the rain

So that it could be easier for happiness to find you

Or maybe I’m still a kid who’s caught in a dream

I’m the heir to the throne of a princess who’s still trying to be queen

Or maybe we’re all just caught in the winds of a massacre

The blackened leaves of dying, black dahlias