Drowned in Your Silence

Why act so kind now?

Is it an apology

Or just a way to soothe your ego

Drowning the noise of your own self-hatred?

Missing you feels like self-harm

Peeling back my layers in slow, sharp agony

For someone who won't notice

For someone who refused to notice

"I can't deal with this" (Deal with this)

What happened to the days

When you said you were okay (I'm right here)

(I'm right here)

With my being? (I'm right here)

Like a badge of purpose

"I'm the one hurt" (But I'm right here)

Dismissing my reasons (But I'm right here)

Ignoring the plea (But I'm still right here)

For a thought of my feelings

(Talking to you with your back to the door)

Was it a turn-on to see me broken?

To see me cry, beg, and plead

For a glimpse of your attention

While you turned away to crawl into your

Sorrowful, selfish, hole of pride?

"I can't deal with this" (Deal with this)

What happened to the days

When you said you were okay (I'm right here)

(I'm right here)

With my being? (I'm right here)

Like a badge of purpose

"I'm the one hurt" (But I'm still right here)

Dismissing my reasons (But I'm right here)

Ignoring the plea (But I'm still right here)

For a thought of my feelings

(Talking to you with your back to the door)

Does it cross your mind?

The weight of your betrayal will peel you away

And slowly bury you into nothing

While I stand and watch

As you did with me

With me