What I Want

I don't even need one hand
To count my real friends
It's getting kinda lonely out here
I guess that I wished that by 26
The picture would be a bit more clear
I had a 5 year plan
Working under the man
Remind me why I left to follow
A dream that might
Make me lose my mind
Cause I don't know where I'll be tomorrow

I'm tryna trust the plan
What plan?
Oh yeah
I don't even know
I'm tryna understand
What I want
And what I don't
Cause

I wanna be known
But don't wanna know fame
I wanna be held
But I dont wanna be saved
I wanna feel love
Without any of the pain
I wanna hate him
But don't wanna stay mad
I wanna slow down
But I don't wanna step back
I wanna feel good
Without any of the bad
That's what I want
I want that

I tried self help
It didn't end well
I thought it might make me stronger
But I still don't know
When it's time to let go
Or try just a little bit harder
They say live in the moment
But keep on growing
I find it a little confusing
Enjoy where you are
But not for too long
Cause you gotta still keep on movin'

I'm tryna trust the plan
What plan?
I don't even know
I'm tryna understand
What I want
And what I don't
Cause

I wanna be known
But don't wanna know fame
I wanna be held
But I dont wanna be saved
I wanna feel love
Without any of the pain
I wanna hate him
But don't wanna stay mad
I wanna slow down
But I don't wanna step back
I wanna feel good
Without any of the bad
That's what I want
I want that

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I wanna be cool
But I've never known chill
I wanna be fine
Without any of the pills
I wanna feel only the things that I want to feel
Do you feel?
I wanna hate him
But don't wanna stay mad
I wanna slow down
But I don't wanna step back
I wanna feel good
Without any of the bad
That's what I want
I want that

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