back then

I'm getting sick of constant negativity
Searching for some clarity
Try to switch my mind around reversing the polarity
Scuttle through the undertow, in urgent need for therapy
Coercing me to stray from my roots

I've even practiced sacrificing bad news to Aphrodite statues
Antagonized by past dues, I'm camera shy and fat too
Diet plan is snack food, banana pies and cashews
The person that I dream to be I pantomime with tattoos, but
Even still I sense the glimmer of my confidence
Hiding under ink I got to mimic my accomplishments
They're few and far between, sorta' timid in their promises
Drowning subtle whispers with the engine of a rocket ship
I can't linger any longer in the past
I'm not the person that I was back then
Romanticizing everything the flowers and the grass
Were a stepping stone for expressing my love back then
But now I'm jaded as I cautiously detach
From all the people that I loved back then
Drowning every issue via vodka from a flask
To think the only thing I wanted was a hug back then

Sick of constant negativity
Searching for some clarity
Try to switch my mind around reversing the polarity
And scuttle through the undertow in urgent need for therapy
Coercing me to stray from my roots
Yeah