Confront It

I’m fine, I say for the last time
I’m trying not to say that anymore
Because it's lying and all I want is to be good
But something black and blue is behind every door
I woke up today
a stranger in my body
I don’t like the way
I only like me when you want me
I have said, I have done
Everything but what I wanted
I’ll guess I’ll do anything
Anything but confront it
It hurts, all those little moments
I made it worse, I tried to just think it away
I thought if I acted like I wasn’t broken
Then nobody would find a reason not to stay
I woke up today
Still a stranger in my body
I don’t like the way
I only like me when you want me
I have said, I have done
Everything but what I wanted
I’ll guess I’ll do anything
Anything but confront it
It never left, you carry it with you
It walks around keeping the score
I am tired, I'm tired of losing
I hear the clock, it’s louder than it was before
I hope one day
I'm not a stranger in my body
And that I find a way
To like me when you don’t want me
I have said, I have done
Everything but what I wanted
I’ll guess I’ll do anything
I’ll guess I’ll do anything
I guess I’ll confront it