If I Had Never Lost My Mind...

If I had never lost my mind
We'd make it past midnight without crying
I could handle two glasses of wine and
We could live on a porch swing
We'd have that white horse thing, a for sure thing
We'd be a rose with no thorns thing
If I was a girl who wasn't deranged
A little more stable, a little less strange
If I, if only I
Could settle the chemicals running my brain
I could be happy and you would've stayed
If I had never lost my mind
If I wouldn't have freaked out
Told you pack up and get out
I wouldn't have come down
Two miles down the road in my nightgown
Life wouldn't look how it looks now
If I was a girl who wasn't deranged
A little more stable, a little less strange
If I, if only I
Could settle the chemicals running my brain
I could be happy and you would've stayed
If I had never lost my
I couldn't stop it and you couldn't take it
I gave you my heart and I forced you to break it
I forced you to break it
'Cause who wants a girl who's a little deranged
A little too much and a little too strange
I don't know why, oh why
I can't seem to settle the shit in my brain
If I could just change, maybe someone would stay
But I lose my mind every time