when u were u (interlude)

A time in my life where I remember
Being truly myself

A memory I had where I felt the most
Myself, my truest form

A moment where I felt truly like myself

A time in my life when I felt like my most authentic self
Was really recently, actually

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The moment where I, where I
Felt the most myself
Uh, okay
The one that comes to mind

It was so early
It was freezing cold, but like super clear
And I was alone in London

This record-long show that I did
And I called it the good old days

I was floating in the Mediterranean Sea

And I walked into my garage
I opened the door
And the house was
Very calm

And that would probably the closest I've been
To what true comfort feels like
And it's extremely liberating

I went to a, now, rap session
Which is a small group of women
Sitting around in a circle
Talking about
How they were
Enlightened about their feminist feelings

Honestly, whenever I'm with my little sister is

I got to kinda bring people into my brain for a minute

It felt like I was living
In the world with no, like, lenses on me

I'd acted on stage for the first time in five years

It had like the perfect combination of people I was with
And the things I was surrounded by

And I was enlightened in that moment
And it was
Like a revalation in my life
About what it means to be a woman

It was a challenge to be vulnerable
And open to a degree that I haven't really approached
In a long, long time

Everything was just, uh-immediately so familiar to me
And it was a rush of comfort

Any time
I think of a moment where I've felt
Completely myself, I
Think of
Almost every single moment
I've had with my best friend ever, Tyler

And I felt this
Imaginary character that I've been chasing
And romanticizing whole childhood

It seems contradictory
When playing someone else on stage
But, really, It's not possible
Without first providing a foundation
That is genuinely present
And genuinely listening
Or else it's not gonna work