Special

Generally, I'm a modest guy
I've eaten my share of humble pie
Sometimes that's delicious, but I do have wishes
To swim with the biggest of bigger fishes
What would be the point if we were all the same?
Life would be an abject, hackneyed game
No frame of reference for pleasure when there's no pain
I'd rather not refrain, I'd rather not abstain

Do you believe I'm special?
Would you agree I'm special?
How could I be so special?
Do I believe I'm special?

I'm not afraid to be cast aside
Invisible guys don't need to hide
The struggle is real, but what's the deal
When folk feel like they need to have the most appeal?
I remember practicing most weekends
At the expense of spending joyful time with friends
Imagining that it would yield the best rewards
Not four repeating hip-hop, doo-wop chords

Do you believe I'm special?
Would you agree I'm special?
How could I be so special?
Do I believe I'm special?

Mom always told me that I was one of a kind
But as I got older and wise, that sentiment began to weigh on my mind
What makes me different from all of the others dreaming?
I can't seem to recall the reason that I'm worth redeeming
I say indifference is bliss, so when I inevitably miss
This dissonance that I'm listening in
Suspends my solipsistic senses a little bit less
Makes my hurt less intense
If you claim it's how you planned it, you don't have to make amends

But I'm not stupid, I know when it's lies that I tell
If there's one person in this world that I can't trick, then it's myself
I suppose it's just the problem with trying to be self-aware
You don't need a mirror to see the misery in your stare
But I see through this senseless entropy
These maladies made a man of me
This blade that Dionysius insidiously insisted on Damocles
Is one that bodes an omen of darkness, or so they tell
Without giving us a chance to see the hand in which it's held

And anyway, who am I to fret like this?
Maybe a key change can pull me out of this abyss

Sooner or later, I shall find myself
And make amends with the me left on the shelf
In a jam session and lesson taught of love and sin
Until we finally find that great, resounding din
So maybe I'm unique and maybe not
But I might as well deliver all I've got

Do you believe I'm special?
Would you agree I'm special?
How could I be so special?
Do I believe I'm special?

Do you believe I'm special?
Would you agree I'm special?
How could I be so special?
Do I believe I'm special?

Oh, live the dream
In a time machine, you've been waiting forever
Oh, live the dream
Do you want it coming back?