Light Shining Darkly

No

I mean

I said earlier

I mean he was so vital and so alive, the fact that he wasn't there was—was unbelievable

And I was totally devastated...

Picking up the pieces afterwards...

And, ah, it took me about a year to feel safe

I couldn't possibly think of anybody else other than John...

I was so distressed

I think it's a dreadful

Dreadful thing