There Is No Warmth

At odds in every sense

Within and without

Enmeshed in the All

Tested to untangle day after day

Knot after knot, and for nought

All for nought

And I can't bear how seamlessly they drift

Through a life that to me seems a gauntlet

I just want to be as weightless as you seem

Instead I feel the drag of every step

The piercing glances that deem me inept

And the allure of an early end

Of all the eyes I try to hide from

I fear most the ones that bore me

For in them I see

Every ounce of the pain we share

Yet an ocean between us

When situations falter me

There is no warmth

When it’s not within me to speak

There is no warmth

Only estrangement and maliced tongues

When the senses overwhelm

There is no warmth

When I'm crying out for help

There is no warmth

From them, from this, from me

I'm so tired, so worn

In self, forlorn

Should I fall asleep

Might I not wake?

They can’t get me in my dreams

And neither can I

That world is mine

This world is not