reality

The thrill is in the chase, never in the capture
I despise you

New year, new me that's a fuckin' lie
I got plenty things wrong with me, I'm always wasting time
I want to change, wanna live my best life
But always something in the way, and I act like I'm fine
I'm so paranoid of the people who surround me
You wanna tear me down, with a smile, do it proudly
Some people care, some do it for their family
But nothing normal in my life, I feel so profoundly
You're such a shitty experiment

My friends say that I'm perfectionist
But in actual reality I'm critical as shit
I don't know where to draw the line
Yeah, am I good enough? Gotta change this
I always had to numb myself, so I used to get wasted
I look from angles, shouldn't see
I'm chasing the truth, reality is all I need
But I'm always confused, why do we lack empathy?
Is it a coping mechanism? I'm hatin' everybody, not me

Nothing's ever good enough, nothing ever changes
No matter what I try, no matter the places
Something always to blame, some people blame their faces
Or they wanna fill the void, by tryna be famous
I got opportunity, but living, it's a nightmare
I'm an introvert, so my positions unfair
I just wanna share my plans, but I hate false promises
I don't wanna hurt the fans, so I have to acknowledge them
I'm moving in silence, for you
I'm fighting every day, for you
I only try, for you
Don't wanna die, for you

My friends say that I'm perfectionist
But in actual reality I'm critical as shit
I don't know where to draw the line
Yeah, am I good enough? Gotta change this
I always had to numb myself, so I used to get wasted
I look from angles, shouldn't see
I'm chasing the truth, reality is all I need
But I'm always confused, why do we lack empathy?
Is it a coping mechanism? I'm hatin' everybody, not me

Silent, silent, silent, for you
I'm f-f-f-fightin' for you
I try-try-try, for you
Don't-don't-don't, don't wanna die
Don't wanna, don't-don't wanna, for you