Getting Older (Recorded at Deezer HQ, Paris)

[Verse 1]

I'm gettin' older, I think I'm aging well

I wish someone had told me I'd be doin' this by myself

There's reasons that I'm thankful, there's a lot I'm grateful for

But it's different when a stranger's always waitin' at your door

Which is ironic 'cause strangers seem to want me more

Than anyone before, anyone before

Too bad they're usually deranged

[Verse 2]

Last week, I realized I crave pity

When I retell the story, I make everything sound worsе

Can't shake the feeling that I'm just bad at healing

And maybе that's the reason every sentence sounds rehearsed

Which is ironic 'cause when I wasn't honest

I was still bein' ignored, lyin' for attention just to get neglection

Now we're estranged

[Chorus]

Things I once enjoyed

Just keep me employed now

Things I'm longing for

Someday, I'll be bored of

It's so weird

That we care so much until we don't

[Verse 3]

I'm gettin' older, I've got more on my shoulders

But I am getting better at admitting when I'm wrong

I'm happier than ever, at least, that's my endeavor

To keep myself together and prioritize my pleasure

'Cause, to be honest, I just wish that what I promise

Would depend on what I'm given, not on his permission

It wasn't my decision to be abused

[Chorus]

Things I once enjoyed

Just keep me employed now

And things I'm longing for

Someday, I'll be bored of

It's so weird

That we care so much until we don't

[Outro]

But next week, I hope I'm somewhere laughin'

For anybody asking, I promise to be fine

I've had some trauma, did things that I didn't want to

Was too afraid to tell you, but now, I think it's time