3AM

[Verse: DEADCRW]

As of late i feel as though I'm displaying too many emotions

I dont know if I can mask it

Feelings just go and I can't grasp it, heads a hot air balloon, bodys a basket

Drifting into the clouds over Earths axis

Into the mist like the smoke of twenty six spliffs

And by twenty six if, I dont have a couple bricks, ready the casket

Ready to end this, I meant this

Whats the point going hard like cement is if my only accomplishments

Are illegal consequences, and a compliment to a cons sequence

I dread this, feel like lifes endless

In opportunity, but after I hit puberty

Life shifted from wanting to catch worms to feeding these birds seeds

The epitome of a piece of shit

Not a, care in the world, I just sit in a whirl and beat my dick

I come from a home of high expectations

Brothers and sisters at graduation, im at probation

Sleep deprivation, Im up at late hours debating my time of detonation

Or if Hell's my destination

A walking time bomb, every drug is what im on

And I just wish I coulda been a better gift to my mom

Once an aspiring athlete to be joining the class elite

Now a conspiring addict, beat, conjoining obsolete

Got nothing going in my direction

In cops cars ive landed in, abandonment for going with my discretion

A walk in my shoes will truly prove why Im filled with depression

Ain't nothing good thats worth a mention

I finally understand what its like to feel emptiness

And like previously mentioned, why i dwell in twenty spliffs

Its a cold world but my heart is colder

I give the world a cold shoulder, I feel like Im an old soldier

Too many things ive done that im ashamed of

And many reasons why I wanna blow my brains off