Trenches

It felt like I was getting flanked from all sides
Was going out on my shield
Years of fighting took their toll on me
All that time that I had wasted with the hurt that I concealed
I'm just glad that shit ain't broken me

Been there in 'em trenches, but nowadays I just fly
Was an overload of my senses, only darker hues in my sky
Don't expect the days to be painless mate, illuminate your own light
Resilience is empirical, I felt the heat in this ride
Now I know that hindsight is fruitful

Tryna remain on my path
And I don't wanna play the games that aren't useful
Planning my time it's so crucial
I see the world a lot clearer now, never graduate, still a pupil
And that's a lost art in humans, so the end result is so brutal

So brutal in these mad times so nuff man, ah gone cuckoo
Focused on these numbers like I's playing Sudoku
I stepped back and I realised all that focus is not fruitful
So I focused on my feelings and what came out was truthful

I ain't chasing papers and my yute he keeps me youthful
I don't seek acceptance, I don't need no ones approval
It's only love and light in life that I respond to
So you bring a darker energy, instant removal

It felt like I was getting flanked from all sides
Was going out on my shield
Years of fighting took their toll on me
All that time that I had wasted with the hurt that I concealed
I'm just glad that shit ain't broken me

Time wasted but time is ticking, so time to face it
This year was beneficial, had me going back to basics
I've reconnected with myself, feel like a kid again
In love with music, sharpened up the pen, I'm that glitch in The Matrix

And I feel I've learnt so much but I'm down for more learning
They couldn't break me at my lowest, kept the fire burning
Know what's important going forward not the dough I'm earning
I've felt the pain, I see the change and now the tide is turning

Yeah, the tide is turning, every human being's deserving
The trenches made a man of me, I'm blessed to be emerging
Colder than the Artic plains, the time in there was disconcerting
And I'd explain it but it's actually hard to find the wording

It's like a constant stream of loss where self-esteem is skewed
And your perception of your worth develops into something crude
No interlude was in the final scene when I made a move
And I'm sorry for the time it took but let us pass this on to you

It felt like I was getting flanked from all sides
Was going out on my shield
Years of fighting took their toll on me
All that time that I had wasted with the hurt that I concealed
I'm just glad that shit ain't broken me