Scar Tissue

"We'll all become what we hate the most at times. It's the struggle against that person that makes us able to speak the truth. In time this will be one more scar, and you'll look be to for strength, trust me when I say this for I was there, and now I'm here and the pains there only in the memory. Everything passes in time and begins anew. It's the times when the bullshit starts again, that you hear His presence and warning sign and reminder that even the most bitter taste can heal."

[Tones]

My whole entire life had to deal with heart issues

Jumping out moving cars, trying to heal the scar tissue

We all become what we hate the most at times

The pain is still there but it's only in the mind

Underneath the black clouds, knowing nothing but hurt

If you felt the verse then you were touched by the words

I wonder everyday how old I want to live to be

Or what I'd give to see a vision, would could ?? to free

Struggling against that person, that ?? isn't me

It's a battle between what I show and the inner me

Deep in concentration, soul contemplating

My destiny, my energy, my memory fade

Cuz in time you look back and realize

You are best in essence to even be alive

And all the truths kept in your brain are real

And proof that even the most bitter of pains can heal

[Coast]

She scares for my soul but they already heal

Try to figure out where I lost control of the deal

It's like scar tissue that I wish you saw

Sarcasm mr. know-it-all

I can't take no more man, the way raw

Push me down in a hole, put me under the floor

It's like I'm fighting with myself but it's bigger than that

Like I love what I hate, man I figure it's wack

Speaking on life, destiny is holding the mic

It's like it's true what I said mothafucka I write

I spent hours in my head, I'm already dead

I don't really feel remorseful, it was already said

I need answers, cancer's infecting the world

If I live will I give what I got to the ??

I blame God for this gift but I'm saying my prayers

Let me in when I ring and I'm coming upstairs

[Coal Cash]

I'm covered in scars, been picking at scabs relentless

I send this to the stars, still waiting for God to end this

Mend this in our hearts, the parts are barely working

Not certain to where to start, I depart to find that person

Who spent his time ?? rehearsing with skills bursting

Immersed in staying ill, tryna build a perfect version

Adverb and kill a sermon, burn vermin to the ??

If the thrill was worth the yearning, earning props on top of burning

Confirming I was turning this burning to a flash flood

Fuel the room with hate as I escaped to what the mask was

With vast drugs to bug shrug the burden, hide the hurting

Working to stay alive but I died inside that person

Somehow I survived to arrive inside a stranger

But the scars are just my sides to reflect the tides of anger

So now I hang a noose for when that ego boost is felt

It helps the scars become the proof of how I used to be myself

[Tabs]

There's a hundred ways I fucked up, a thousand things I done wrong

A million ways to run amuck, it's hard to sum it up in one song

I admit I'm guilty, my hands got filthy for the progress

I knew it would make me strong if it didn't kill me in the process

I had to start over and swallow every ounce of pride

That ?? have scarred over, and the broken bones have calcified

My dreams they try to kill 'em, and fill them with formaldehyde

But they ain't about to die, shadow of death'll never cloud my sky

It's fate of dark when them poisonous darts hit you

It rips through scar tissue from heart issues that God gives you

But if y'all live through the predicament the bitterness will disperse

No longer to be plagued by the ignorance of this Earth

I know that it hurts but it's barely a limitation

It's liberation from jail if you can prevail through tribulation

I can stare at it blindly, just when I swear it's behind me

I finally become aware there's something there to remind me...sing