Fig Tree (good girl)

I moved to the city for a magazine
I met a man who's twice my age
He said he would help me if i could help him
He said he'd get me that front page
I told him i'm 19, he said "you're a baby
I graduated before you were alive"
When we got to his hotel
And took off his clothes, well
That's when he called me baby one more time
And then he called me baby all through the night

Well I was growing a fig tree in the city
And the figs were growing old
I was heavy and hungry
And hanging above me
Were the dreams that i'd been sold

I could live in the country with someone that loves me
Christmas, kids and cherry pie
Or i could stare at the branches
Insist i'm an artist
Stubbornly watching my figs die

But i'm a good girl
You take me home your dad says
"Buddy I like her"
I please and thank and say
"I'm happy with either"
Later I lie there
It's your world
Just say I'm a good girl

I wanna be empty
And I want you to forget that you ever met me
I wanna love a man before I turn twenty
I wanna be envied and emptied
Don't let me down gently

I wanna be buried
I wanna be sleeping there forever under bedsheets
I want you to cry into my coffin baby bless me
I wanna be
I wanna be
I wanna be

I wanna be crueler and kinder
And bigger and lighter
And louder and quiet
Not so undecided
And younger and wiser
And sober and higher
And humble and clever
Oh then i'll feel better
Oh crueler and kinder
And bigger and lighter
And louder and quiet
Not so undecided
And younger and wiser
And sober and higher
And humble and clever
Oh then i'll feel better
Oh then i'll feel better
Then i'll feel better
Oh humble and clever
Oh then i'll feel like I'm a good girl

You take me home your mum says
"Honey I like her"
I please and thank and say
"I'm happy with either"
Later I lie there
It's your world
Just say i'm a good girl
I wanna be empty
I want you to forget that you ever met me
I wanna love a man before I turn twenty
I wanna be envied and emptied
Don't let me down gently