apathy

I want someone to love me
For longer than one night
To see them in daylight
Step in from the sidelines
I'm sick of the sidelines

I want somebody's feelings
To match how i feel things
Invest in the real thing
Save time on the healing
I hate all the healing

But i let them use my body
That's the only time they want me
Tell my mumma not to worry
I'll be fine

3am and i'll come running
For some temporary loving
Tell my friends i'm in control
But that's a lie

I want long conversations
And healthy debates
And the staying up lates
Man i'm loosing my patience
Wounded and waiting

Tell me that i look pretty
When you're nowhere near me
I see it so clearly
Can anyone hear me?
Can anyone hear me?

But i let them use my body
That's the only time they want me
Tell my mumma not to worry
I'll be fine

3am and i'll come running
For some temporary loving
Tell my friends i'm in control
But that's a lie

I'm not home
I'm missing
Clear to see i'm better off alone
Not with him
His apathy is clinging to my bones, indifferent
Courtesy of boys i used to know: forgiven

Here we go
Stay hidden
Another round of bullets to my skull
You did it
Take your time in taking what you want
I'll give it
Tired of feeling everything at once
Lets kill it

I'm not home
I'm missing
Clear to see i'm better off alone
Not with him
His apathy is clinging to my bones, indifferent
Courtesy of boys i used to know

Here we go
Stay hidden
Another round of bullets to my skull
You did it
Take your time in taking what you want
I'll give it
Tired of feeling everything at once
Lets kill it

But i let them use my body
That's the only time they want me
Tell my mumma i'm so sorry
I'll be fine

3am and i'll come running
For some temporary loving
Tell myself i'm in control
But that's a lie