Martyr Moves

How can I know what to do?
What's harder than finding my place in the truth
Is to keep it a secret once I do
'Cause it might hurt someone more than I would want to

To sit in a dream while it dims
Will the loneliness crush me more alone or with him?
And what do I think I might prove
If I make
These martyr moves?

Three months
Nine months
Three years
Six years
12 years
20 years
40 years
80 years

My hope is a flickering flame
Which I've found it increasingly hard to explain
But I'll try

In the family forge, I got burned
Taught a story in so many words
That it's best to prepare for the worst

And to make
These martyr moves
And to make
These martyr moves